now with my own loved child, my only reason for happiness, i have no patience. i'm no good at playing on the floor for more than 5 minutes and i can't make up stories anymore. my son deserves a fantastical adventure and i can't give it to him.
how does that rate on the 'awesome parent' scale?
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Why is it that we do this, Lola? I hear you, heart to heart. I have moments when I am good but too often I have to make myself. My self gers in the way, casts its shadow. I hear you, heart to heart. And I wake up every day thinking, today I will do better.
That photo goes clear through me.
xo
erin
Oh Lola, forgive yourself!! Now you are a MOTHER with all the responsibility, and the need to earn money and care for clothes and food, and get not enough sleep, there are hundreds of reasons! You read my post on forgiving! I remember how I once went to a doctor for some minor reason when my kids were small, and all he did was ask a sympathetic question, and I started crying a whole river - but he understood! It`s the young mother-syndrome, always asking too much of oneself!
Go find some friend who tell E a story and plays with his toys, and you put on lipstick and go out for a stroll!! He doesn not need a supermom, he needs YOU. A mom who smiles and looks pretty.
i found it! your treehouse. i love it. i had one once and all the feelings came back at once when i found yours.
awesome parents come in all sorts of sizes and shapes and makes. the best thing you can do for little e is to listen to him, really hear him. find someone else that enjoys rolling around on the floor and do something else you both enjoy together...reading, cooking! there are so many ways to connect with your child. YOU are a wonderful mom because you LOVE him so much. It'll be okay. really.
i love it here in your treehouse.
p.s. word veri : tatepie, shall we bake one??
Lola, I left you a comment yesterday, where has it gone? Was it deleted?
Anyway, as you read my own post you know what I would say! Now that you have the responsibility for your own child, you have to care for his daily needs which is much more than just playing on the floor. This takes up a lot of your energy and time and care, and it is just so that with lack of sleep and worries on our mind we are exhausted and sometimes angry and not as patient as we should be! So go find a babysitter who will play with E for a few hours, and you go to a nail studio or whatever you like, and relax, and return home with a smile and a hug! Your son loves you as you are, believe me!
It's a lot more work when you can't just send them home afterward. "Awesome" is reserved for other people's kidlets.
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